I am a blogger. At least, I tried to blog.
I have admitted several times in the past that this class was not my first blogging experience. Generally, blogging requires that one have a massive ego and that one be so opinionated that it makes normal socialization impossible. As such, I had a feeling that blogging was something I would be quite good at. Like most middle school and high school students, I had a
Xanga profile and a
Livejournal profile, but I was never able to click with those. Most of the posts made on there were very personal-too personal to even consider posting on the Internet-and it led me to the conclusion that no one really wanted to know about what was going on in my life.
(It did not help that my friends all used these sites as well, and their lives were somehow even more boring and pointless than mine was at that point.)
My first real blog, “
Eating the Document,” was intended to be a summation of my very intense (and usually negative) opinions on a topic near and dear to my heart: popular music. It seems that people had become bored with my rants about music after an offhand comment I made about Nirvana was taken to be a personal affront to someone’s livelihood. While I took note that it wouldn’t be the best idea to offend everyone I met with opinionated bile about things that are, admittedly, severely overvalued, I liked the idea that my opinions could have such a strong effect on people. What I especially enjoyed about Eating the Document, though, was the vastness of the blogosphere of which I was a part: previously, on the other two blog sites I have mentioned, my responsive audience was only my friends and slight acquaintances. With Eating the Document, I now had a much larger audience, and only a handful of them-if any at all-knew who I was.
With this assignment, I went back to complaining and whining to a core group of people who knew who I was and who were shocked that I had nothing better to do than post things on the internet. Fortunately, we were all forced to be hopeless shut-ins, so we were free to develop our own personalities that became apparent in the blogs as the semester passed. Ultimately, that is what these blogs were: they were extensions of our personalities, yet they were not really us. Speaking from my own experience, the way I would be perceived based on my posts was always somewhere in my mind. I could say anything I wanted in class, but I’d have to own up to whatever I said in class on that Wednesday.
Blogging is a very therapeutic experience in general; a friend of mine started a blog on Black Friday solely for the purpose of complaining about the shoppers she had to deal with. However, the blog becomes a shaped image of us, one that we create and mold according to our needs and desires. It serves to complicate our lives; then again, nobody’s life is ever really simple, is it?